Last Week

This week seems to be one of the busiest weeks I've had.

I've started a new job for a couple of weeks now at a great restaurant, I'm preparing my kids for EOG's which start next week (oh my goodness) and at the same time raising money for our Ecuador trip. God has giving me so many different opportunities...a new job, a job and a missions trip that WILL be provided for. I decided that I wanted to do something this summer. So I thought, why not pick up an extra job and start paying things off! I've got an awesome schedule to work with so I will still be able to enjoy the summer without any school. I'm starting to get anxious about the end of the year though. And not so much because I'm not necessarily guaranteed a job and not about EOG's, but I just know that I will definitely miss every single one of my kids! They are my first class ever and I will never forget each little piece of their personality that they walked into the 4th grade with. i need to figure out what to do with Zinc the turtle. I would give her to a student for the summer..but I just might miss her too much.

For an update on my trip: 

This is our last week of raising funds for our early submissions. As of right now, I have $1,615 to raise by this Friday, May 4th. I may not see it yet but I just know that the Lord is going to be faithful during this time. 

He is well aware of the things that I need to go on this trip and He supplies all of my needs. I'm start to prepare myself now for this trip to come. It is exactly 2 months from today. I've really been trying to prepare my heart for people. Not just the people of Ecuador but for all people. We're called to show the love of Christ to everyone, not just the people that we are friends with or the people that we are comfortable with. How can I truly love the people of Ecuador and not love the people around me or the people that I will be traveling with. I've really had to break down some walls that lined my heart and hindered me from even truly receiving the love of Christ. There were so many things in my life that I allowed to to seep deep within and affect me, even without really knowing it. When my Pastor or a speaker would hit on those things, even something as simple as "there are hurts in this world of betrayal and abandonment" I would instantly feel a weight on my heart. It was like a knife being jabbed into an open wound. It's been such a process for me to move past these things and accept the overwhelming love that Christ has for me, in EVERYTHING. Not just the things that I may see, but in truly everything. I want to share that same love. You can pray with me about God not just healing my heart, but truly softening it for His people. His heart breaks for His people and I want to be sensitive and aware of that. I'm praying for an overall sensitivity to everything, especially when it come to my trip. I want to be led for the things I need to prepare for, the things that are happening now in Ecuador and when I get there and the things that are to come afterwards.

Break my heart, O Lord, for what breaks Yours.